crafting the day

Am noticing the additional alertness required by self-employment, and the spaciousness it offers, knowing that by not slipping into a 9-to-5 routine I have the added opportunity and responsibility to be alert today. It is like facing a fresh easel each day, knowing that there are a range of tools at hand and colours available (current priorities and tasks) but with some room to craft the day. Interplay between “crafting” and “receptivity” – true openness to what arises rather that arising from obligation or “shoulds.” The difference between should and could is slight but significant. And the key element – to which I still feel traces of resistance – is truly opening to the fresh easel, the unmarked moment, the uninjured heart. Creating daily space for emptiness so that motivation for picking up “a good brush” arises from the stillness.
On this side of the process (before meditation, buzzing from coffee and two separate drives to the schoolbus), I can also understand that there is a creative surprise in store – that the “good brush” might be a financial task, an emotional task, a creative or domestic task, etc. The act of doing that arises is less significant than the quality of being that surrounds it – and at the same time, the act of doing is the only way to manifest presence and creative energy in this lifetime.