letting go

I’m growing in recognition of broad deep energy flows that connect me to this universal energy, in my understanding that there is no way I can conceptualize or control or manage adequate intention to find a place of solid certainty. Instead, my liberation comes from letting go into the flow, giving up this obligation to craft a perfect life in order to really experience the chaos and ordered patterns and being that is. Recognition that I am terrified at times and ecstatic at times and loving and hateful and selfish and generous… but the more I plug in to the energy stream, the more detachment and passion and capacity I can access, as ego melts into the river. I wear ego like a dress that will float around me and expand effortlessly in the river, yet cling to me and plaster me with cold immobility when I am standing alone on the shore.